Ruse, Muse, Obtuse

stuck in the middle....



There are times when i wish i wasn't reasonable. That i could just be unreasonable and do exactly what i want, say what i want and not care about the after effects.

Sadly no matter how mad or how upset i am I can't bring myself to willfully hurt the other person. Its irritating to be stuck between feelings of inflicting pain and the compassion aching for the hurt i am about to inflict.



This constant tug of war..leaves me in a state of pained equilibrium.

I wish i wouldn't think so much, i wish i didn't feel so much.......i wish i was cynical enough to be both.

But sadly the vicious circle continues...... more patience u think? me thinks so.

And the Saga ends....

I've been waiting for almost two years for the last installment of Harry Potter. As the days to July 21st came closer the anticipation and longing grew exponentially. I pre-ordered my copy and the week before the release, pre-ordered it in another store which is closer to where i live so that worst come worse I could walk to the store in the morning.

As i lay awake on friday night a part of me was reluctant to see the light of the next day. Once i had the book it would all be over. One of the best things I've read would come to an end.

I woke up early and was outside the store before it could open. I stood out and waved my pre-ordered voucher to the people in the store, who informed me that they were going to start giving the books away in a little while. I got the first copy of the book though i had to muscle out a little kid who was trying to get the first copy. (yeah very childish of me, but i was there first!!)

I spent the whole day reading the book and studiously avoiding human company because of the kill joys who went around announcing the end of the book.

I finished reading the book at 3:00 am. And i felt like i was saying good bye to a dear friend. I know i will read those books again, but it will never be the same.

So long harry, thanks for all those pleasurable hours spent following your journey.

No not Amitabh..i can only wish ..or for junior. Then again may be not.

My dull office life is perked up at times by work and others by people who work there, like the times i walk into the ladies restrooms to find some one weeping. It always amuses me to guess the reasons behind their distress.
My nearest neighbour is a gal, whom i caught shedding a couple of tears on her desk once. She and i are separated by a short glass partition between our desks. We get along well as in i look at my monitor, she hers and we smile at each other in case our eyes meet accidentally or i can ask her for change in case i desperately need change to pay the rickshaw guy. Which is all i hope for when someone is in ur peripheral vision all day

This peaceful balance has been disturbed by this new chap who has been working on her system this week. This guy is perpetually angry and is on the phone most of the time and in the throes of some serious argument. He speaks softly so i can't really make out the context of the argument but i am guessing he is arguing with his current/ex/soon to be ex lady love. I can feel the anger radiate from him and it is distracting and disturbing to be picking up so many negative vibes. Today his neighbour jokingly commented that he should really finish his conversations at home. i think that if he is going to be angry and arguing he should be loud enough so that i will at least have something to gossip about.

I learnt in school that "There is many a slip between the cup and the lip".
I love my friends, we just have so much fun. We are living examples of these wise words.
Something happened this morning and i could'nt resist posting it.

My best friend was updating me on a recent sms conversation she had with a guy she has been mildly(?) flirting with. They were discussing cooking and her cooking skills.
She: " So i sent him a message saying,
Wherever you shall go i will follow
And whatever you give I will swallow "
Me: [Chuckling]
She: "Why are u laughing?"
Me: "You said it wrong"
[Pause]
[Enlightenment]
She: " Oh My God, Noooooooo, i hope that's not what i sent!!!!!!"

Distressed she was cuz she meant " wherever you go i will follow, and whatever i give you will swallow", from the book "Men are like waffles and women are like spaghetti"

Rewind over a year back.
I was chatting with a dear friend of mine

Me: So what plans for the weekend?
He: Got sports bra plans
He: Woopsie.... *bar
Me: hee hee, i would'nt want the details...lol